Can you get used to certain style of Worship Leader?

If this post reaches the eyes of my Pastor, I wonder if she would twist my ear, and twist it hard...hehe....

Anyway, there is this particular worship leader in my church, which I have problem with. Not with the person though, but the way he leads the worship. Every time he leads, I would know that it's going to be a one way street. Meaning, he will lead and will sing, but I would find it hard to follow and participate. For most of the time, I would just keep quiet and look down to the floor, hoping that there will be a song that I know and that I can participate in. I always tried very hard to let the lyrics go down into my heart, sometimes I tried too hard. I usually have no idea of the songs he chooses. And the worst of all, he likes to go solo and intentionally goes off tune. Yes, I mean intentionally. He knows the tune but chooses to goes off tune to be different. Throughout the whole worship session, we usually cannot hear our own voice, except for his. And there will be many times where we have to listen to his singing especially when he starts to sing using his own words, again and again with no lyrics whatsoever on the projector. And he is a master of repetitions...for the same chorus, he can go on and on for at least 5 times and the final few times is when he would display his art of going off tune (or pitch...donno which is which... :P )

My brother, do you mind if we be allowed to participate in the worship? Are you leading us to worship and sing praises or are you singing to us? Do you think we enjoy listening to you singing especially for most of the time, I feel that you are just shouting to us? Sigh, as much as I hate to say this, you gives me the impression of 'shiok sendiri....'

For those fuming with what I wrote, please don't go into defensive mode ler....

I know what you going to tell me -
".... if you want change then you must be the change, meaning..., participate in worship ministry lor... don't just stand there and be a commentator only... "

To that I have no response and offer no excuse. If you think I am just being fussy and difficult and that my comments are not justified... just ignore me lor... I am just saying out loud of what I think mar....not that I go and forward to every member of the church...

Sometimes, I just feel so guilt ridden for wanting the praise and worship to end quickly...

Perhaps I can check with my brother in the worship ministry so that he will inform me weekly on who the worship leader is for every coming sunday...

let me know.........., let me know................., if you think I am a terrible trouble maker for the church...

Korean Missionary Singers - feedback

Just came back from KL. Had a wonderful night of praise and worship. It's been a long long time since I experience such a deep and profound worship. Although it jammed all the way from Puchong to SS2 while on the way to KL, it was worth it. We reached there around 10 minutes past eight.

The praise and worship started 15 to 20 mins late and those precious time allow me to calm down, rest and quite down my heart after all the aggressive driving.

We do not know what to expect, but most of us believe it will be some good performance by singers with strong vocal and great music. We were wrong.

The performance started with one of the member playing the saxophone. That actually sets the mood for the first half of the performance. It was soulful and then the singing begins. The first 5 songs are mostly sung in Korean, with English lyrics. We could follow some of them, but most of us would prefer to listen to the performance instead of participating. There are three singers, with one worship leader. The musicians consist of the Piano/keyboard, saxophone, electric guitar, drum and finally, a violin. Certain part of the songs are sometimes accompanied by only one instrument and that allows us to appreciate the instrument further and it does not feel too 'noisy'.

Then come the songs, one after another soulful rendition of praise and worship in english. Although I do not attend english praise and worship that much, I could actually sing almost 90% of the songs. (KL Wesley are mostly liturgical worship singing hymn with no drums, no chorus repetitions and limited clapping) I guess I learned most of these songs from the two years attending the Kota Damansara Chinese Methodist Church.

There are very few songs that would touch my heart every time I sing in church (one of them is the Lord's Prayer). And surprisingly they sung one after another the very songs that would wet my eyes on most days. I sing along whenever possible and when it touches too deep, I would just bow my head and feel the presence of God. No, it was not self inflicted and I don't even need to try to enter into 'that' mood - the feeling just come naturally with the music and the singing.

They are young talented singers and are terribly tired from the singing in Penang, Ipoh, Setiawan, Kampar and now KL. But according to the Korean Pastor, they are spiritually becoming stronger. Their next stop is Seremban. Every year, these same people would dedicate a portion of their time to perform in 10 churches overseas. Malaysia is lucky enough to have them here this year.

Towards the last half and hour of the performance, the tempo got faster. Now, they belt out one after another songs that have faster beat. Again, I am lucky enough to know most of these songs. For the first time I started to sing my hearts out, raising my hand and moving my body. I am even clapping with purpose. ( prior to this, for most of the praise and worship I participated, I somehow feel I was pressured to clap :P )

I could feel the whole congregation and the singers are worshiping together as one. They are very good in not letting the momentum slow down by combining various songs so well that we could follow almost effortlessly.

I was tired and hungry and thirsty, but I find myself not being able to stop singing. Even as I was having my dinner at SS2 an hour after that, I still find myself clapping or tapping my thigh enthusiastically. Very child like....hehe...

Finally, thank God for granting me this opportunity to praise, worship and experience You. May this period help me and all those who attended to come closer to You.
Amen.