I know something is wrong with me, but just don't know where .... Was it some questions unanswered of the spiritual nature? Was it some physical condition that causes these pre-depression feeling? Was it emotional disturbance? Was it physiological condition? Was it some physical/emotional desires that are not met? The last thing I want to do is to confused myself and address the symptoms rather than the cause.
Whatever, I do hope that comes tomorrow things should start to look better as I will be driving home to Johor to have a well deserved rest. Away from work, from people over here, from the church, from the cell and from people who have certain expectations from you.
The day starts in an eventful manner when I attempted to withdraw money from the Maybank ATM. Guess what, the machine due to some mechanical fault fail to eject my ATM card. So me standing there, no money, a nearly empty petrol tank and without my ATM card. Sigh, got to drive to office and borrow from my colleague. Once in the office, I notice one thing, I forgot my laptop! Well, another drive back to where I stay, and I was lucky that the traffic condition is perfect! As the Good book said, In all situation, whether good or bad - Praise God!
Come afternoon, I went to the said bank to attempt to collect my card from the Bank staff. To cut the story short, I was given a summon for parking indiscriminately. Well, I deserved it of course, what else can I say? There goes another RM70. But then again, where can one park in Puchong Jaya? That place is seriously jammed packed!
Somehow, I think there will be more things that will happen. Maybe I should say a prayer to prepare myself. God is indeed testing my patience and the way I respond to things that happen to me...sigh....
Whatever, I do hope that comes tomorrow things should start to look better as I will be driving home to Johor to have a well deserved rest. Away from work, from people over here, from the church, from the cell and from people who have certain expectations from you.
The day starts in an eventful manner when I attempted to withdraw money from the Maybank ATM. Guess what, the machine due to some mechanical fault fail to eject my ATM card. So me standing there, no money, a nearly empty petrol tank and without my ATM card. Sigh, got to drive to office and borrow from my colleague. Once in the office, I notice one thing, I forgot my laptop! Well, another drive back to where I stay, and I was lucky that the traffic condition is perfect! As the Good book said, In all situation, whether good or bad - Praise God!
Come afternoon, I went to the said bank to attempt to collect my card from the Bank staff. To cut the story short, I was given a summon for parking indiscriminately. Well, I deserved it of course, what else can I say? There goes another RM70. But then again, where can one park in Puchong Jaya? That place is seriously jammed packed!
Somehow, I think there will be more things that will happen. Maybe I should say a prayer to prepare myself. God is indeed testing my patience and the way I respond to things that happen to me...sigh....
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2 anak ayam bother to comments:
i had this kind of day on the last day of 2008 . hopefully it means my quota of bad luck is used for another 365 days
Lucky b ... d you, only for the day! Mine is lifelong. Hence the rantings, and the attempted insights, no, no attempted suicide!, at my blog. It's in the right column. The way you are handling it is on the right track, God and all, methinks. Looks like words are therapeutic to you. Same for me and that's the way it is meant to be. BO's inaugural words stirs the spirit of the whole of humanity. Up there with Jesus' healing words, pardon me. Sad to see some people close their minds to words and jump off the roof. Maybe this method of exiting is meant to be. By the eyes of the Almighty, all methods have equal value, methinks. Rudyard Kipling's poem, IF, comes to mind. That is one helluva good Christian precept, methinks. He says both adversity and good fortune are equal impostors. Wow that hits home hard. You cannot go better than that. The grunted truth is we are made of sterner stuff that cannot be swayed by either. This is the "I" of the Storm - finding CENTER, and found, and all things proceeding from there. In the fierce light of everlasting truth, what is a $70 fine, a left-at-home laptop (mine was taken out by lightning, an Apple no less!). My lifelong lost list is longer than my arm. Bike got stolen, boat in transit lost, er, enough said. Haha! Might give wrong impression. And as regard chicken feet, ah yes, I've been an unregistered member of the world wide web of the barefoot brigade for as long as I can remember. Still active. Of course you have to select your spot where you can bare your sole, er, can't resist this, and your soul! Enough said.
Ah, the above is my long-winded way of saying something simple - get well soon ...
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